I am this because I choose to be this way and due to reasons - I COULD HAVE HAD A RELATIONSHIP IF I WANTED , BUT IT'S UP TO ME - I DID MY STORY OF BEING SINGLE AND WHY IN THE ONE CONFESSION I NOT TO LONG DID ON MY PROFILE.
Stephenrko Stephenrko
36-40, M
1 Response Aug 23, 2014

Same here! I have spent the last 20 yrs of my life trying to make someone else happy and I got **** on in the end. I dated two ed's the first was my exhusband and I met him when I was 19 yrs old. I stayed with him until I was 33, he is the father to my children, but he was abusive so I left him at 33 and took my children into safe housing, that was in 2007 and we were divorced by 2009, Then I met my second ed and stayed with him for the last 6 yrs and he was no different than my first ed. Now I am 40 and spent the last 20 yrs giving up myself and my own happiness to please them. Now finally as I approach my 40th bday, I will be celebrating it alone. Because for once in my life I am living for me and not to please anyone else. I am single because I choose to be, and have no plans on trying to start another serious relationship. I like my single life, and its the first time I have been single in over 20 yrs.

The new feeling of freedom must be a relief after so much time and disappointment , but after so many years , loneliness may set in, like a repercussion - but with a strong will , you will be able to cope, am sorry some people lives and your ends up like this after so many years, like no guarantee no matter how much you give of your self - I admire your dedication , and heart for trying to make things better for so long - but me , as I lay down how I think this is how it should be and things don't seem right , it's either the next person shapes up , or I am gone , with many warnings before . My reason was to follow a spiritual journey , sure I could get some one to go at it again , but I needed someone to understand my views , my connection to god or the higher power - just some took it for granted , and all they knew to apply was something based to this world or could only tell me of such - I am not too hard on any one , but is happy if some body wants to learn form what I am interested in. I would like to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE , hope you enjoy to the fullest. And also , yes you always need ME TIME , in any situations , or relationship - because you always got your own world going on within you.