I want to be courted, pursued, wanted.

It bothers me how other girls seem to just bounce back after being in a relationship for over a year and start dating in a few weeks. I've only had one boyfriend for two months, two years ago, and I haven't been on a date since. I've only ever talked to one guy ( under the pretense that we might date) and that only lasted like 2 weeks. It makes me feel ugly and deficient.

But by the same token I'm scared of getting hurt again. I tend to fall fast and hard, it's just my nature. I'm a sensitive person and always have been but I'm also a bit of a hopeless romantic.

I like the idea of romantic love, but it just seems to be out of my reach. And I do see guys I find attractive but I don't approach them, I feel that if they find me attractive as well they could introduce themselves, I'm just old fashioned that way.
PurpleHart PurpleHart
18-21, F
Sep 2, 2014