Really Want to Believe

I'd love to believe in a virgin birth, or resurrection, or that God walked the Earth in the form of man but there are just too many gaping holes in the story and too many unanswered questions for me. I have a hard time with blind faith. I want proof. I want evidence. Solid, blatant evidence. Until I get that, I won't understand Christianity.  Why it is such a broken religion?  Why does it put down other people's religion but claim to accept everyone? Why would I want to talk to a middle man (Jesus) when I could just talk to God? 

So many unanswered questions. I don't think I can ever be a true Christian. I'd love to be and I need some sort of faith in my life but am too analytical for Christianity.

aka746 aka746
26-30, F
1 Response Feb 22, 2007

Have you explored other religions? Up until this year I longed to be a true Christian and have a religion like "everyone else". I am a very organized person and I love structure and order. I am someone who enjoys having a religion, now that I have one. Something to have a conviction about, to be passionate about and to cherish. It means a lot to me and when you find the right path for YOU, it's an amazing experience. If you would like to have faith in Christianity, but just can't seem to "get it", you should really explore other religions....until you find the one that matches YOU, its impossible to be true to yourself AND mold a religion to fit your morals and ideals. You have to find the one the fits you, as opposed to the one that you can mold to fit you. I had to learn that it would just be wrong and untrue to yourself to fake faith. I kept feeling myself drawn to Christianity because it's so prevalent on my college campus and I have been raised in a Christian environment. I had to acknowledge the fact that I was drawn to it because of my exposure and my desire for religion. I'm glad I didn't fall to temptation and found my own path.