Too Much Like My Mom

I have always had commitment problems. Granted, I only had two boyfriends, but they were both short lived. It's like like they were bad, it's just that I didn't feel comfortable in the relationships.

See, my mom always told me that a woman is just as strong without a man, if not stronger. It was easy for me to believe that because most of the boys at my school where idiots. So, I decided to go through most of high school single. I just sat back and watched as one by one, my friends got into one bad breakup after another. Even my own parents were having problems at the time which eventually lead to their long separation and pending divorce.

Everyone said that I was lucky because I didn't have to worry about being cheated on by a rude boyfriend if I didn't have one. For the most part, I was relieved that I was that lucky, but it still nagged at me that I wasn't experiencing love of any kind with another man.

But I guess I'm in good shape. To be honest, if I ever get married (if that is possible) I will make sure that I can support myself if ever the marriage went south. Marriage is only beautiful if you know for a fact that you will not get hurt.

I blame my parents for making me believe this!!!
lanacat lanacat
18-21, F
1 Response Jun 5, 2012

Parental example is so important. When I first read your message, I thought you would be in your late 30s or older. But at your age, nothing is lost. Don't feel under pressure from peers. Find yourself first, then love will find you. In due course, you'll be a parent too, trying to set a positive example. All the best.

Thanks for that!!! :)