Meaningless FearI don't know what's wrong with me. Every guy I've ever dated has dumped me because I acted too distant. Call it shyness, I guess, but that's no excuse. Truth is, I'm scared of them seeing the real me. The girl who sits at her computer all day, who hides from the world because she thinks she's ugly. I've always told myself that no one could possibly want me, and maybe that's why I do this to myself.
But now there's a new one. He's cute, charming, and one of the nicest people I've ever met. We planned our first date for this weekend, not knowing I'd get the flu. I kept thinking I'd get better in time for our date, but I didn't. And now he thinks I'm avoiding him when I'm really not.
I'm determined not to screw up this time. I'm not going to ruin another relationship with my insecurities.
rose413 13-15 2 Responses 1 Jan 21, 2013