I Just Cannot Grasp It

 I guess that's my problem.  It could be hormones, too, and maybe it's complicating things.  :)  I'm in a long-distance relationship right now with this awesome guy--I can say that I am very close to being totally in love with him, and we say 'I love you' back and forth, and we have great times together, even though we've never met face-to-face and it's only been 3 weeks.  I hear him say it and I REALLY want to it to be true and sincere--I think he does, honestly, but deep down, I've never, ever been able to believe anybody, such as friends or acquaintances or even family, when they tell me they love me and to what degree.  My parents and people around me never said that, and it's hard for me to say it and believe someone else truly feels that way about me.  On top of it, my dad doesn't believe such a thing exists and insists that I stay single and away from any kind of romantic relationships.  I know he's had bad experiences with it, but come on: I want to get out there--maybe I won't have the same experiences he had right?  Or am I making a bigger deal out of it than need be?

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22-25, F
Feb 10, 2009