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I Am Skinny

And Sometimes It's A Nightmare

By: TheBattleWithin
Written on October 21st, 2009

This is kind of hard for me to talk about....but I feel the need to put these feelings I have into words....so here it goes....

I've always been really thin and I never really thought much of it...not until I was about 20 or so....things started to change. I started getting so many strange comments from all kinds of woman....every shape and size.

When I was in college...I was in a small typing class. A small group of about 4 ladies...including the teacher started to get into a conversation about what they would do if the could spend one day in my body....they were like "I would go shopping"..."no...I would go to the beach"....I don't think I've ever been more uncomfortable in my life. 

Then there was just the other day at work...a woman that works at the store came up to me and took a long hard look at me and started saying how skinny I was and how she wanted to take me on the side of the highway and....I didn't really want to know what. She kept bugging me for a couple hours....bringing other woman up to the counter to look at me...I felt like a circus freak. 

There have been other comments I have overheard...like "how come she's so skinny"..."why can't I be that skinny"..."oh...I'm so jealous"

Perfectly beautiful women...gorgeous women...say these things. I don't get it. I don't understand why just because you are thin people feel they can say whatever they want. I guess because they think it's some kind of compliment. And I also don't understand why being really thin is such a great thing....I'm flat chested and small...while ladies with beautiful curves and womanly bodies are jealous of me??? I don't understand. 

It all makes me feel so terrible...like when I go somewhere I'm going to make some woman feel bad about herself because she was told she has to be so skinny. I think other women have so much more beautiful bodies than me...but I guess the magazines tell them otherwise. I just wish more woman could see the beauty of there own bodies and not compare themselves to me...I'm the weird one. 

And I wish I wouldn't get singled out so much...it makes me feel like such a weirdo and a freak. I just want to be treated normally...I feel like this happens to me way more than it should. I just want to feel normal...is that too much to ask???

By: TheBattleWithin
Age: 22-25 , Female
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6 responses
  • knb53
    knb53

    Don't try to figure it out. I like to think that my "Skinniness" is a virtue and healthful blessing that others only wished they had.

    You are what you are. Let them eat cake LOL

    Nov 3, 2010
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  • TheBattleWithin
    TheBattleWithin

    I completely agree leopard101...you can only tell who a person really is through their actions....not what they look like.



    Thank you Mevo!!! It's nice to know I'm not the only one who has this issue. I don't know why people feel like it's ok to say these things to fellow human beings. It's just gets so creepy and weird sometimes. And if one more person asks my if I eat I'll scream!!

    Jan 26, 2010
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  • Mevo
    Mevo

    I know EXACTLY how you feel. I'm 23 and STILL getting unnecessary comments on my size. I'm not even making an effort to be skinny, i'm just naturally built like this. I am so sick of people being rude to me and thinking it's acceptable!

    Jan 7, 2010
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  • leopard101
    leopard101

    Yeah, I used to be skinny in my childhood, and no matter what I did I couldn't change that (turns out it was due to allergies I have). Now I look better but I have never forgotten the lesson I learned regarding what people who may look different ... well, not ugly, even beautiful, but different - face. I have learned never to judge people or their life experiences by their looks. Only their thoughts and actions ever reveal that.

    Oct 22, 2009
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  • leopard101
    leopard101

    Yeah, I used to be skinny in my childhood, and no matter what I did I couldn't change that (turns out it was due to allergies I have). Now I look better but I have never forgotten the lesson I learned regarding what people who may look different ... well, not ugly, even beautiful, but different - face. I have learned never to judge people or their life experiences by their looks. Only their thoughts and actions ever reveal that.

    Oct 22, 2009
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  • Shinigami69
    Shinigami69

    I know it's difficult, but try not to let it bother you. At least you are being singled out because other women are jealous of something you have, instead of being singled out because you have an obvious flaw.



    Being on the receiving end of negative criticism feels worse because in your heart you feel like the critics might be right. In your case, you know the problem is them and not you. I have seen your pictures and I think you look great!



    Society puts too much emphasis on being thin, so all of these perfectly nice-looking women are walking around with the belief that they should all be built like runway models, or they are not beautiful. I think that's completely ridiculous. Different people are beautiful for different reasons. It's unfair to judge everyone by such an unrealistic standard.



    People by nature, are envious of what other people have. I wish more people would just be happy with themselves.

    Oct 21, 2009
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