This is kind of hard for me to talk about....but I feel the need to put these feelings I have into words....so here it goes....
I've always been really thin and I never really thought much of it...not until I was about 20 or so....things started to change. I started getting so many strange comments from all kinds of woman....every shape and size.
When I was in college...I was in a small typing class. A small group of about 4 ladies...including the teacher started to get into a conversation about what they would do if the could spend one day in my body....they were like "I would go shopping"..."no...I would go to the beach"....I don't think I've ever been more uncomfortable in my life.
Then there was just the other day at work...a woman that works at the store came up to me and took a long hard look at me and started saying how skinny I was and how she wanted to take me on the side of the highway and....I didn't really want to know what. She kept bugging me for a couple hours....bringing other woman up to the counter to look at me...I felt like a circus freak.
There have been other comments I have overheard...like "how come she's so skinny"..."why can't I be that skinny"..."oh...I'm so jealous"
Perfectly beautiful women...gorgeous women...say these things. I don't get it. I don't understand why just because you are thin people feel they can say whatever they want. I guess because they think it's some kind of compliment. And I also don't understand why being really thin is such a great thing....I'm flat chested and small...while ladies with beautiful curves and womanly bodies are jealous of me??? I don't understand.
It all makes me feel so terrible...like when I go somewhere I'm going to make some woman feel bad about herself because she was told she has to be so skinny. I think other women have so much more beautiful bodies than me...but I guess the magazines tell them otherwise. I just wish more woman could see the beauty of there own bodies and not compare themselves to me...I'm the weird one.
And I wish I wouldn't get singled out so much...it makes me feel like such a weirdo and a freak. I just want to be treated normally...I feel like this happens to me way more than it should. I just want to feel normal...is that too much to ask???