I was reading this article "What if all I want is a Mediocre Life?". I think it is a breath of fresh air or more like a relief for me that I don't have to be extraordinary. I think maybe I've pressured myself too much to be the perfect wife, mum, daughter etc. I strive to be a mum who is present for my kid. I want to homeschool and be a minimalist. I always seem to tell myself that I need to be kept busy and active. Sitting down and doing nothing is a "failure" to me. Even now, as I am going through the pangs of separation, my mind is thinking of ways to plan for a great future as a single mum and being the best for my child. My mind is thinking of ways to be independent and to push away help and support. I've been pushing my parents and brother away because I don't want to be a burden. I don't want to be seen as incapable. I want to be seen as strong, independent and emotionless. But do I have to be that? Why can't I let my guard down?

Soon enough as I face the world with my status, I know I will be questioned, "So what are you going to do now?" Somehow the separation has knocked me hard and I realised I can't live the "perfect" life the world wants me to be. Why should the world define me?

Read the article here: http://www.alifeinprogress.ca/?p=1065
majesticsea majesticsea
26-30, F
Feb 24, 2016