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I Am Slowly Losing All My Friends

Feels That Way..

By: TheShadow77
Written on May 22nd, 2011
It feels like all my friends are leaving me one by one. I lost my first friend because I was dumb and thought they loved me, since they said they did.. but he never had. So I lost him as a friend of mine, back in 2009 and he hasn't spoken with me since. I lost this Kenshin fan as a friend too, since she was saying that I shouldn't be gay, and the only reason I run away is because I want attention, nothing more.. but she never heard the whole story. I lost the Kenshin fan's husband irl as a friend as well, since he is on her side so o.o. I even lost this other guy as my friend, since he couldn't "handle my depression." Those are in his words too. I am even losing the one I love now.. since he believes what this Kenshin fan says over me. Maybe I am not worth being friends with, or worth having an online family.. my in real life sucked too. Since I tend to make people flee by how I talk, since another female friend told me this, that's why she left now as well. If my lover leaves too.. then maybe I should just disappear from this world. Maybe that first guy I dated was right.. maybe love isn't out there for me. Maybe I do talk too much, I have cronic depression, though it used to only be depression. My first guy I dated caused me to get cronic depression, I also have bipolar and those two things aren't good together at all. I can list all my symptoms too for both.. but people tell me to shut up all the time. I love to rant to get it off my chest.. anyhow ending it at this, I can keep ranting o.o.
By: TheShadow77
Age: 18-21 , Male
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  • Greg862
    Greg862

    In your life, many people (some of them friends) will come and go. It's the nature of life. Issues take us away from friends, some to never be seen again, some perhaps to be seen again in the distant future. You are not alone. Many of my friends live far away. The GOOD NEWS is that with the Internet, it is so much easier to find and stay in touch with them than it ever was before in history.



    Don't let it depress you...it's just part of LIFE...not anything specific to you or your sexual or life preferences. One thing I DO KNOW...no matter how many friends you find and lose...there will always be more NEW FRIENDS somewhere down the road who you don't even know yet and with who you will share some very funny and enjoyable memories yet to come. But just like a movie...you have to stick around for the boring parts in order to reach the good parts that make you laugh...and sometimes even cry with laughter. Don't walk out early or you will miss those parts.

    Jan 5, 2012
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  • TheShadow77
    TheShadow77

    I do hope so baddayx8, I like having friends. I think its better if the other person has gone through the same thing in life or close to it, so that they can help you out if you need it. I don't know what the future holds for me yet, but maybe it will be a stronger one.

    Sep 2, 2011
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  • TheShadow77
    TheShadow77

    Yeah, I think I should try to find other people to be my friends. I just wish that people were truthful I guess, though it seems that I worked things out somehow with the guy I love right now. I am happy for the time being, actually have been since last night o.o. Thanks, for being my friend. :).

    May 23, 2011
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  • shorty246
    shorty246

    It does not matter what sexual preference you indulge in.

    You are a human being and that is all that matters.

    You are somebody who is worth being loved and treated right. Don't let anyone else tell you different.

    The people who you deal with are not true friends because if they were they would not leave. They would be there til the end. That is what a true friend does. Get some new friends who can share in your pain and emotion and is willing to take the time to get to know you...the real you.

    There is also counseling groups that you can attend and there are other programs that can help with your depression. You do not have to suffer alone.

    As for your relationship, you have to love yourself first before anyone can love you or be in love with you. Once you start treating yourself with respect and dignity everything will be okay. Even if you have to take time off and be by yourself. Take that time to find the real you, listen to yourself and make note of what you want out of life, who you want as a partner and as a friend. Maybe, and hopefully you will be able to tell the real people from the fake people.



    I will be your friend. You have one friend, okay.

    Stay strong and keep the faith.

    May 22, 2011
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