My X left me 6 1/2 years a go. It was OK, except it killed my self esteem. Then I meet Laurie. She was perfect except for a tweak, She needed 5 husbands! I Loved her but she didn't love me. Again my self esteem took a hit. I in the mean time, the job I was working at, which started off good, kept changing the management around and pushing me very hard, I push myself to hard on top of that. My self esteem was being torn down some more. Then under my distress from work my girl friend of 2 1/2 years left me for another guy. My self esteem was taken to the bottom in Great pain! I quit the job I was working and found another. Now I work all alone in a dungeon all day and come home to my empty house. No friends, no family, only Brittney to talk on the phone to every few days. She doesn't want me either. I'm in the deepest emotional pit I've ever been in and for the last 6 1/2 years. I try to clime out but someone all ways kicks me back down it the pit. It has been a downward spiral I can't seem to break. I'm at the bottom... or maybe it's deeper than I think! If this is my life! I don't want It! "Please Lord let me Die, I don't want to live on this planet any more, let me go....."