Ok we have been together for 6 years I love my husband more then anything in the world he is my everything! He has a drug problem he tries to get clean by him self but it only last about a week and then he takes off some times for a day some times for multiple days right now he's been gone for 5 days . We have 3 kids that I have to take care of that I have with me 24/7 but he can just get up and take off and stay gone for days and leave me by my self. I feel so abandoned I'm heart broken and I have so much anger towards him cuz he keeps doing this to me . I told him I can't do this anymore but honestly I can't imagine being with out him when he's not using he is such a good guy he makes me so happy. But when he goes on his drug induced hiatus I feel like he dosent care about me. He said he needs help cuz he wants to be a better man for me he came home last night and was telling me he was gonna go stay with his cousin (who is a Christian ) cuz he feels that that will help him get back in to church( we use to go 2 days a week) cuz he needs god to help him change. At first when he came I wasn't angry I was just sad but then reality hit me and I got so angry I was calling him all kinds of names and telling him I hate him . I do hate the person he is right now but I love him soooooo much ! It kinda hurts my feelings that he didn't ask me to go to church with him. I don't know what to do I feel like he dosent even miss us when he's been gone for so many days I'm so hurt I don't know what to do someone help me please!!!