I Hate Your Other Side

So my husband is a drinker, and has been promising to stop- failed numerous times. I resent him so much I am not attracted to him anymore. It's not always physical attraction it's also mental, and I hate how he handles things. He can't!!! If it weren't for my nagging, he would of pissed him self drinking somewhere with all the issues we had. I use to think it was for fun but he will drink all day If you ignore him. I feel more of a mother than his wife and I don't find him becoming. He has lied to me about how much he has had, and insults my intelligence. I haven't left him of fear that my only sons father would turn to **** if i do, and how sad my little boy would be.
Mizdeed1 Mizdeed1
36-40
1 Response Sep 25, 2012

I feel your pain. I have been married for 33 years and my husband has told me he would stop drinking. But back in 07 he had to have a liver transplant, you think this would have woke him up. Oh no back at it again. I ask myself why in the hell am I still here. So much pain, the promises , lies I am about to lose my mind. I just don't know where to turn or to whom for help. I have tryed support groups but no one has any answers they all just sit around and talk about it. That was no help to me. I am so lost and depressed , everyday I wake up I say please tell me this was a really bad dream.