Completely Lost...........where Do I Go From Here?!?!?!?!?!

I have no idea how to start. Everything is a huge mess. I live but I feel as I'm numb doing what is expected of me but not fully living. Love is a sweet yet a very cruel emotion. I had an on and off relationship of nearly 3 years. We just currently broke up. I feel so lost. I am in love but this feels so bitter. We argue often hence he felt I didn't understand him. I've been doing everything in my power to make it work but in the process as well I've contacted my ex-boyfriends.  Why???? I have no idea I just felt the urge to talk to them.  I contacted one and went out with him and I appreciate him as a friend but could definitely understand why it didn't work out. As for my first boyfriend and well the only guy I've ever been engaged to I had searched endlessly and have sent him an e-mail telling him i would like to talk to him, and I found out he's getting married. My stomach turned into a knot. I'm so lost I have so many sorrows that I don't even know where the pain is coming from. I'm 24 years old and I feel so unwanted and alone.

klestizzy klestizzy
22-25
1 Response Mar 4, 2009

Life is sweet and painfull too.If it's not painfull there is no meaning for sweet.Every body went through once in their life time's as you.When they got offended with the things on the road they feel pain and angry.<br />
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Let me give you Situation.I have been down the same road 2 months before and I got dumped.At that time,I feel more pain and angry.I thought i can't make it.But now,I have a best girl in my life ,Who is sweet and Caring personality.We always cry for things,Because we thought they are the best things in our lifes.<br />
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Every thing happens for reason.Accept it and belive in law of attraction.You gonna find a sweet guy,Who treats you like a princess.<br />
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What you belive,What you get.<br />
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"Different goals,Different dreams,But follow your soul.You will find the answers".