I Dont Know What To Do

I don't know how to handle things.Their just spiralling out of control.Sometimes I think I'm not really alive.Like it's just a nightmare.I just can't wake up and I need to be saved from myself.You would never guess I'm sad and I've been told I'm strong but in reality Im weak. I cry myself to sleep alot.I've cut but no one knows its the only way to get out my pain.The emotion drowns me.Laying in my bed but not sleeping.Crying in my room.Can't picture myself grown up. Times going faster. **** this. People can talk but its all bulshit.I just don't understand.Why god why. Breathing is decieving.Just keep growing older and colder.
brittanytg98 brittanytg98
13-15, F
Sep 17, 2012