Im Fed Upsome days getting out of bed is hard .oh yes my sad existance has took me to depths i would have never known. i am crying inside.
people say how are you how is your life doing? i say yeh great or just say something like fine in a quiet voice .inside i am a child crying
for help not knowing where to turn in life what road to go down i am lost almost in a sea of doom.my antidepressants itake everyday are just sweets they do nothing.i know i dont fit in i feel like i have a social disease .i am so lonely i just want to be happy i want to change it but i dont know how im in my late thirties.time goes fast.i am a shy sensitive guy who does not have luck in life in any shape or form.
my mom calls me a loser a failure.i never had a proper girlfriend either .im just upset when i see happy couples together and realise that
will never be me maybe if i was gay i would be better off because girls women think im ugly i have no idea what to do when my mom dies
i live with her she is 62 .18 months ago i lost my job .my brother got a new house and has a son who is 8.im full of hate anger bitterness
jealousy . i hate happy loving couples who cant keep their hands off each other kissing and cuddling in public on a train in a lift even in the
computer store. why dont u save it for the bedroom so losers like me cant even get more upset im raging sorry thanks for reading x