I Don't Want To Love Him Anymore

I don't think you realize how much you've hurt me. How badly this has gone for me. I'm getting tired of holding in the hurt, but I don't want to appear as weak. You and her are great, but me, just an outsider. I mean your never going to love me, no matter what anyone says. I stay up late thinking, and now, it came back to bite me. I've fallen over the edge and I can't get back up. It's a matter of me just either loosing my mind, or just idk. I feel like I need us to be friends but I don't want to force anything. If I were to say all of this to some random person, then they'd just assume you were just like all the other jerks. But I know you, and you're not. Your different. And that's what I saw in you. I always thought that God put me in your life for reasons, to keep you on track, and to help you trough the bad. And maybe the bad is going to come for you and you will come to me, but I just know the bad right now is here for me, and I wish that you would talk to me without using technology. :/
lovahchic lovahchic
13-15, F
May 22, 2012