Need Sex Now!!!
So once again, here I am writing a journal entry, or blog, or anything, just getting my thoughts out into written words, while my little brat wife lays comfortably and soundly asleep in our bed in the adjacent master bedroom. Oh my freaking gosh, I need to have sex so badly right now it's ridiculous! I think that if I didn't have at least this outlet for just writing out some of my frustration, I would probably go get a prostitute right now!
And as I know that most of you are probably thinking by now "why doesn't he just look at **** and ********** or something???" I should probably inform you that that is absolutely and positively out of the question as I am a member of the mormon faith, and we are strictly forbidden to do anything like that! You can fool around with your spouse and yourself if he/she helps you, but other than that, you are just simply not allowed to ********** or look at **** and that's just all there is to it! Besides, I really don't find that even the slightest bit appetizing and so I don't think I'd even be tempted to do that even if I wasn't mormon.
So why am I sitting here writing this with a hard-on day-dreaming of my wife's gorgeous naked body as she lays soundly asleep in our bed? Well, I won't wake her because she's not feeling so well. Heck, even if she was feeling just fine, I still wouldn't wake her as she gets extremely irritated when I wake her for anything, let alone to have sex! You see, sex is a chore to my wife. It is something that she "allows" me to do to her when the horniness from a week or so of not getting any finally gets to her, and she figures that since she can't have anyone else, I'll just have to do to ease her pent-up libido.
I hate not being able to have my wife whenever the heck I want! I absolutely hate it!!! Who died and included in their will that the female race would be the guardians of any and all sexual encounters within the household? Who invested them with power to call a headache a legitimate reason for denying any sexual advances for as long as their "headache" may last? It's all a load of crap if you ask me! Little did they know that it's actually been scientifically proven that the muscle contractions experienced by a woman during ****** triggers the release of hormones of the parasympathetic nervous system which have been found to aid in the release of tension and pain caused by migraines and headaches!
If you can't tell, I'm just a little sex starved in my relationship, and I really have no idea why! I'm a good looking man, (about 6 foot even), I have dark olive skin as I am Hispanic, I work out on the regular and have a wonderfully toned and muscular physique, I have dark hazel eyes, spiked hair, a grin that can make any woman that I may come across blush, and I always keep myself well groomed as I am for all intents and purposes about as metrosexual as a man can get! And don't you dare think me gay for I am deeply in love with the idea of shaved *****! ;-)
So why no sex for Spencer? Why people? Why do I long and yearn for the touch of my dear sweet wife? Why do I ache to feel her juicy soft legs wrapped around mine or her cute little boobs brush against my thick muscular chest, and she doesn't even look up at the sight of me shirtless? WHY? I just don't understand? What am I doing wrong? Why do I get a hard on that you could hang a wrecking-ball from just checking out her fully clothed butt, but if I try to even just kiss her when I'm fresh out of the shower she just pecks me on the cheek and goes on doing whatever the heck she was doing before I showed up?
Women of Experience Project I really need your help on this one!!!! Neither of us cheat on each other, I can promise you all that-we are too devoted to our faith and way too traditional to even think about that, so I will absolutely not accept the suggestion that "oh, she's probably recieving sexual fulfillment from something, or somebody else and so when she comes home to you she just really has no further needs or sexual desires". BULLCRAP! I will not accept that as a possibility! Not true!
I don't know what to do people, I just want more sex, that's all! I've explained this need to my wife on multiple occaisons, and it never seems like she changes anything or tries to make an effort! And yes, I do all the little things for those of you women who will claim that that is what I am doing wrong! I tidy up when I get home every single day! I do the dishes, I help make dinner, I make dinner some nights, I make the bed, I bring her home flowers randomly and for no good reason other than to make sure she knows just how much I love her. I send her sweet emails and tell her how beautiful she looks always. I do everything that any woman wished that their husband/boyfriend would do, and yet here I am sexless, sitting here on my couch writing this pathetic post! UGH! Life sucks!!!
Anyways, any help any of y'all might be able to give; any advice, anything really, would be greatly appreciated! I truly hope that others who respond to this post are people who have happy and healthy sex lives and that none of you are suffering through the same thing that I am, because it truly hurts to feel like your partner doesn't need or want you sexually, and if you are by chance going through what I am, be of good cheer, you are not alone! :-)