Loneliness Within

Although I have just celebrated my 24 anniversary, there is an immense amount of loneliness within me. This last year has been the worst. We are still close in some ways, but so far apart in others. The best way I can describe how I feel is that when we first met, we were arm in arm, going down the same path. As the years went on and our lives have changed, we somewhere came across a fork in that path and he went down one way while I went down the other. We are still hand in hand, but sometimes those paths are so far apart, we are barely touching, while at other times we are close enough to put our arms around each other again. The biggest thing that hurts me right now is that I've been going through an emotional turmoil, and I can't turn to him for support, so my best friends as of late have been my pen and pad. He doesn't see it. It's been frustrating for me. Of course, everyone else sees us as a perfect couple still very much in love with no worry, what no one sees is the heart inside me crumbling to pieces. *sigh*