So Very, Very Miserable And Alone

This is like a flashback of sorts for me. I once wrote a poem called "There are no friends at 3:00AM" ...when I was very low and afraid. I was coming down from a Meth binge, and couldn't sleep, and mt anxiety threatened to sink me. I have been clean for years now, but I ran out of my antidepressant last week, and I guess I am now really in serious withdrawals from it. My body and mind are so wracked with serious anxiety. I a, so sleepy, and need rest so bad .... but every time I try and lay down my body goes cold .... my heart pounds ...... and I gasp with shortness of breath. It is just a terrible feeling, and ot makes it even worse that it feels like back when I was coming off of drugs. Miserable !
Neveragainever Neveragainever
36-40, M
1 Response Dec 5, 2012

Your story seems about. The past, but I will assume it is part of your present.

It may be easier said than done, but you must first ride it through your withdrawals to make progress. Then you need to find healthier methods to deal with your angriest. Some of it is probably emotional and psychological, so look into meditation techniques, and read up on what healthy foods can help with anxiety to deal with a possible chemical imbalance.

The book, " The Power of Now" is an excellent book to help gain control of your mind.