Overwhelming SadnessI am so sad I don't know how to keep going. My husband left me and I have been trying to do the things that are supposed to make me survive - exercise, therapy, joining groups -- but I have hit a wall and now I am just so sad -- he was my first and only love - and for the last 13 years we were a family - leaving would have been bad enough but he also is treating me like i don't exist , he left but everything is still in the home we shared, he went to live with his twin and that's kind of the last i have heard from him - I live in the town he works in and close to his family - not one of his famliy members has said a word to me since he left which hurts so much - last summer the twin that he moved in with went through a divorce and both he and his ex sought me out as a source of comfort --- which i provided to the best of my ability - now that twin has not even acknowledged that I exist - i get how complicated it would be for all of them but I mean not one word of concern for me even if they can't have extended contact with me - i feel so betrayed and disgusted but mostly i feel a level of sadness that i didn't know that i could feel and i don't know what to do with it. it is difficult for me to leave the house now and as time goes on i just think more and more that i don't want to exist in this world anymore. I don't know if I can handle much more.
conhopesin 36-40 3 Responses 0 Nov 14, 2011