Ready To End It!
This year has been the worst year I belive I have ever had in my life and I'm 54. My sister and I have been working togeather for 15 years and this year, in May, she decided to quit. That was so hard but I picked myself up and worked on. Then in June she was diagnosed with a brain tumor with no hope of recovery. She wanted to go home to pass away, so I took her home. I took off work and took care of her for ten weeks untill she passed. Now two of my sisters are gone. And the one that is left has stired up so much trouble that I'm not even talking to my Mom much less her. On top of all that my grown son is causing problem between my husband and I. Well I can't realy say that.... My son and my husband don't care for each other. Well my son needs a place to stay for a short while and my husband says no. How can I leave him without a place to stay? My husband has no children of his own and can't understand why I help my children since they are grown. Its not like they ask alot from me but when they do I try to help...If I can. I have my Mother and my last sister on one side, my husband on the other and my son mixed in all that too. I'm ready to call it quits....I've had all I can stand! I want to be with my sister's....It's just getting so hard on this earth that I'm having trouble getting up every morning. My insides fell like it's raceing all the time. Tears flow and flow.I can't get them to stop! I have trouble sleeping so I take something to help me sleep every night. Now I find out that I have a tumor in the back of my neck that is causing my leg to hurt and then go numb all the way to my toes. I have no insurance...so I can't do anything about it. I'm a housekeeper and its getting harder to work. So could you blame me if I call it quits?