"can't Stand Myself"The soliloquy in one of Van Morrison's songs always comes to mind, when I have spent too much time in silence, and alone.
Chat sites do not help, nor does going out to coffee shops and bookstores. No one looks at me, or even asks for the time of day.
I trudge through my failed attempts of "getting out there" and "exposing myself to good people/places/things" and come home cold, sad, exhausted.
At my age, at seven years single after ten years of neglect and abuse I feel as if I will never be held again, or hear the words "I love you"
No one, nothing but myself.
And I can't stand myself