Post-grad Sucks

Since graduating in May, I have had difficulty finding employment. I have applied for so many jobs and gotten so many rejections. It might be because I majored in psychology which supposedly has one of the highest unemployment rates. That isn't surprising since really the only thing directly related job is a research assistant. Well, there's also becoming a psych tech. Either way I've been having trouble. I haven't even been hired for food service. It's like people are looking at my application and resume and immediately throwing them away without a second thought. It is completely frustrating and makes me feel like I've completed wasted time and money on a degree that doesn't even matter. I was considering applying to grad school after working for a little bit but now I'm not even sure if I want to go anymore. I wonder if I'll have the same problem or if I'll even get in. I just feel like a total failure and it just sucks. It is also exacerbated by the fact that all my friends are actually doing something productive with their lives and I'm not. I'm the loser who lives at home with no job. I also can't do the things I did while I was still in school. I have no money, I live at home, and don't have a car to drive, a license, or a means to get either. And my family is basically broke because we had to move, my older sister sucks with money, and my mother and older sister have basically relied on adoption subsidies instead of my mom getting a real job. I might not have it as bad as other people but it still is not pleasant. Sometimes I just want to give up and not live anymore. But then I remember that my life is all I have, nothing more. I just really hope there is more to my life than this. I cry almost everyday about it and I don't know how much more I can take of this.
changling20 changling20
22-25, F
Dec 12, 2012