Being A Single Mom

i've been alone and divorced for over 3 years now, and have yet to be in a decent adult relationship...i'm incredibly tired of being alone.  i keep telling myself that being the best mom i can be for my two boys should be fullfilling enough, but it just doesn't seem to be.  i'm very protective of my kids. if i go out to meet someone it must be after they go to bed...i don't want them getting attached quickly to someone who may not be around long, so i keep my dating life ( what little life it is ) seperate from them.  i've dated 2 people since the divorce...the first one we ended as friends, because he knew he'd eventually be moving away to go to film school, and didn't want to put me in a position to decide to uproot my family to go with him.  the second, started off with a huge and passionate flame, and ended just as quickly ( 3 weeks later ) when he decided to move back to london.

i have a terrible time even meeting people because one, i don't get out much, and two, i'm not very good at talking to new people.  i've been attempting the online dating thing for some time now, but everyone i seem to dig seems too far away, or doesn't seem to have the patience i require for getting to know someone...

it all really just sucks sometimes...