So ******* Tired

I have been fighting for goodness in my life for so long. I am 51 and have really been fighting every day for the last 16 years. I have worked so hard to overcome all the hate that was given to me as a child, but I havent yet reached where I want to be in life. I would so like to be married to a really nice guy. I have been a single mom for 20 years and it is sooooooo hard, especially in the financial situation I am in. Just to have a husband to hold me and be nice and supportive. I am not looking for a perfect husband for the perfect husband for me. I have kept my promise to myself to only marry for love. And I have been single for 16 years (4 of those married but he did nothing to help as a parent) and I am still looking and waiting for that husband. Its not that there is something wrong with me, it just isnt time yet, I am one of those women who loves God and He still has me waiting and waiting and waiting for the right guy. God knows that guy I am to marry. I just havent met him yet. It is sooo hard to be a single mom in the financial situation I am in. i am sooo sad that I am not marrried yet. It is so hard to keep going and keep going and keeep going without a loved companion. Thanks for listening
mama12345678 mama12345678
51-55, F
Dec 3, 2012