Feel so down and depressed and would have ended it all long ago if not for an 8 yr old daughter with ADD and a wife who is a transplant recipient.

Our parents invested so much into our education, over and above what their circle was doing. Lesser people seem to be doing infinitely better. This hurts so much that many times every day I inexplicably feel a welling up of tears and a pain inside, a voice telling me I should just leave.

What use is my life to the planet around me? Even a janitor has purpose. I have squandered my youth and am now finding it difficult to make ends meet.

Wish I could wake up tomorrow and it would be 21.08.1992 and know how bad I'd turn out. I would dive into my education, be serious about life and stop chasing the ladies.

Wish I could travel through time and just change all of this.

Not looking for sympathy or advice, just needed to spill my guts.
wasteometime wasteometime
36-40, M
Aug 20, 2014