Especially Right Now
for all you people ho need glasses i am not just talking about the unattractive shell on the outside i'm talking about but the inside as well. especially right now. right now i am consumed with twisted darkness. i have become weak and pathetic once more and yet again i want to give up. the mystery of my future is haunting me and love is tearing my heart in pieces with every beat. i am ugly, hideous, monstrous even. i deserve all this as well. i am not the person you all think i am, i am just a pathetic waste of space who hates himself and wishes he could numb the pain away. look at me in my patheticness and laugh or its what i deserve .. .that and death.