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I Am So Unhappy

I Am Always So Down

By: iloveyou33
Written on March 15th, 2011
My boyfriend of 2 years cheated on me, and left me out to dry. I was off to school at the time and barely made it out of the experience living. I had no one at the time, and it forced me to return back home because of the depression. Since, I have gotten over this experience, but every relationship I have tried since then has blown up in my face.  Every person has been completely afraid of committment, and I don't know how to handle it anymore.  I really start to like these people, and as soon as I do, they pull the rug out from under me and I am back where I started at. I don't know what I am doing, or how to change it. I don't know how I can find someone that would be healthy for me, and I feel like, even if I did find that person, I wouldn't be able to get them to stick around. I am at a loss and I don't feel like I can handle another heartbreak :(
By: iloveyou33
Age: 18-21
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  • carriezluv
    carriezluv

    It sounds to me like you are the lucky one! I had a cheater & I married him! Thank the heavens it is over now. I miss the man I wanted him to be-not the man he is. Therapy is expensive, I agree.... I've been through a lot! Still the same insecurities are there. I know I am a good person, not bad looking; yet I find myself questioning why would 'he' cheat? What was wrong with me. Well on a good day, I know what is right about me... Like you, I was strong enough to move forward, without him. That makes you, immediately, a strong, confident woman! You must have believed that you are strong enough and better then that! Well I am here today to tell you that you are! Remember that people sometimes take advantage of a persons sadness. Just don't forget that sadness and weakness are not the same! Sadness, we will learn from and rise above! Weakness is not an option! I wish you success in yourself!

    Apr 10, 2011
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  • werallfuct
    werallfuct

    im so sorry girl. i too feel your pain. idk how to fix something like this. it seems to me like you have the same issues that i have and that is that this guy totally destroyed your confidence in not only yourself but the confidence that you look for in other people as well. im nobody to take advice from, i cant even get myself out of a bad situation. but i would suggest therapy they will help you talk through these issues. i want to try myself but it is expensive and i cant afford it. sometimes just having someone listen that doesnt know you can help is all im saying good luck! i hope you can find the happiness your looking for =)

    Mar 27, 2011
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