I Deserve An Idiot of the Universe Award.
He promised me that he would never cheat because he had been cheated on and he knows how much it hurts. We work at the same place and because of that we had to keep it a secret so he told people he was dating a girl named karen, i thought nothing of it until i found out karen is a supposed ex girlfriend. One day i forgot my keys in his truck and called his house to tell him, (his parents havent met me yet) and his father answered the phone and i said Hi is __ there? and he was like oh Karen he is in the shower but he said he would be over there in about 10 minutes. So i hung up the phone and was dumbfounded. Then it took along time before anything else happend, another thing is that he never would leave his phone around me, it always stayed out in his truck. He told me that he never EVER talks to his ex karen anymore and he promised me that. So one night i was in my room and looked in his coat and found his phone, he was in the bathroom, so i checked his text messages and it said 2 new from Karen. they stated " hey handsome thanks for the wonderful date, had fun sorry it was cut short" and the other" hey im so horny come over and do something about it" . I freaked!! he was so mad at me and said he knew nothing about the texts and said yeah he did go hang out with her but they just walked the dog so he couldnt understand as to why she sent those texts, he then cried and said that he swears he didnt cheat and he would never cheat because it happend to him and he knows what its like. so i accepted that but still had the lingering doubt that he now planted, he told me he didnt plan to tell me he went to see her as to protect me from getting mad. So he was checking his messages on anormal phone and i spotted his pin number to check his answering machine messages and i started checking thenm all of the time. I kept hearing messages from some crying girl that was really inaudible to hear . Back in september he went to this wedding that i begged him to take me , he said i couldnt go because i didnt sign up early enough, so he went 2 hours away with his " cousin". I then hacked into his email account and found that karen girls email address and started looking at her profile and the pictures and low and behold, the first picture is of her and him at that wedding together. I then found a lot of messages from some girl that he was talking to online talking about how she cant wait till friday when they can **** and all that, and this was already 2 months into our relationship. When i asked him about the wedding , i didnt reveal that i saw the picture, he told me i was nuts and being paranoid. I then created a fake email address and messaged him pretending to be another girl, he responded by saying he was single and would love to get to know me. I feel like such an idiot .. my dad is a cheater and keeps telling me to stop snooping through his stuff because i always nag him that i deserve to be cheated on. I havent eaten in days or slept and i just wish that someone whose unbiased could tell me im not crazy and that what i am seeing is the truth.