I Am Sober Right Now

I feel weird today...all out of my happy pills, painkillers and benzoes...I am struggling with temptation, but I think I will be alright. I just need to stay here and not go looking for something to take my pain away. So far I have hidden the fact that I go through a 2 week prescription in 3 or 4 days from anyone. I know I am getting worse, and it will just get worse. The pills are not hardly working for me and I want something stronger. For me that is dangerous. I have almost been a lifelong drug user, and I don't want to end up like my Mother. She was severely strung out on heroin and cocaine for most of my life. It was horrible, and sometimes I feel like I may be headed in that direction...I am sober today and hope to stay that way
BlackRose321 BlackRose321
31-35, F
1 Response May 21, 2012

I've been clean and sober since 1990.