I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm a teenager and I'm incredibly socially awkward. Whenever I'm in a social situation ( sometimes even if it's only towards one person) I get extremely nervous. My brain just stops and I just can't think of anything to say to them. I can't keep conversations going at all and I don't even know why. It's like my true self just vanishes as does my personality when I approach social situations.My brain just shuts off when it comes to new people. The only people I'm normal to, are my few close friends and my family. In fact I hate social contact with people I'm not comfortable with. Heck I'm usually too scared to give an answer when my teacher asks the class a question. I'm mostly an introvert unfortunately, probably the reason why I have a hard time socializing. It might also be because i hate being judged for what I say and how act, but why? Can anyone relate?
Jake1224 Jake1224
18-21, M
2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

That's how I am too! I don't even know why, it's just like I can't have a normal conversation with people I don't know that well without feeling awkward and doing something wrong :P

And what would happen if anyone of those people/classmates/... would judge you?
And do you judge people if they do something (wrong)? Or just something that you feel was stupid to do for that person?

I really don't judge anybody unless they're like jerks. In fact, I admire people who are so social and open. But I just feel like I'm on the spotlight at all times and I don't want people to think negatively about me.

But will people really think negativ about you just if you do something wrong? And it's not like anything you do will be wrong anyway.

I guess not. Yet even if were to think about it that way, I would still avoid social situations. I really do want to be a more social person, but I can't unless I force myself. And I always find a way to embarrass myself.

But du you really embarrass yourself? Or do you just thing you do (or just did in a situation)?

Occasionally, I really do embarrass myself. Like spilling a drink during a formal dinner. But not always, I just think I will,

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