Always on the sidelinesSo I feel like I'm always that person sitting on the sidelines, the person who doesn't quite fit in.
You know how most people can find someone to relate to wherever they go? How they can go up to a random person, start talking, make friends with them practically instantaneously? Yeah, not really who I am.
I don't really know why this is, but I have a difficult time "clicking" with people. I try to be friendly, I try to smile, I try to come up with topics of conversation, but my attempts to converse normally don't usually work out...
I think part of the problem is that I'm too introverted. It's difficult for me to share things about myself in real life, I guess I've never really learned /how/ to share things about myself with other people.
It's not only that, though. My personality seems to get lost a lot of the time. I know I have a personality, it's just that it's hard to retrieve sometimes because of lack of use. The most I can do now, I guess, is to not pass up opportunities to talk with others and to be gentle on myself. In other words, to not beat myself up over not being as socially adept as the people I see around me. I need to take steps to gradually improve my social skills, even when I'm not entirely sure what areas I need improvement on.
One day at a time, right?