My Quirks.

I hate answering the door at home. If I don't know the person, I usually wont. Even if I do know them, I wont unless they were invited. I don't even like answering the door for delivery people, but I will out of necessity.

I don't like talking on the phone. There are only 2 people I will talk to on the phone on a regular basis and that is my sister and my boyfriend. I absolutely hate trying to come up with things to say on the phone. I hate having to listen to people go on and on. I hate the awkward escape from the phone call. I even hate having to call places for customer support or to order food. But again, I will out pf necessity.


I don't know what to say to strangers. I find it crazy how most people just come up with things to go on and on about. The most random stuff. How do you even think to bring some of that stuff up? I'm very succint when talking to strangers or anyone I don't feel comfortable with. I say what is necessary to say and that is it. I'm not this way with people I am close to, though.


I draw a blank when caught off guard. Just the other day I was in the city I grew up on and know like the back of my hand, I was walking down the street and a woman came up to me and asked me where a place I've been to many times was. I couldn't verbalize it. I stuttered and pointed "That way go down that street." She asked "Just walk down there?" I stuttered more and say "Yeah that street." and walked away hurriedly. I'm sure she thought I was a little retarded or something.


I feel awkward when I realize I'm making eye contact for some reason. I will do it subconciously, but when I realize it, I feel weird and I want to look away but I feel like I'm supposed to maintain the eye contact so I do. I start thinking about the eye contact too much and I lose track of what were even talking about.


I don't like asking for help, even when I really need it. I am terrible at math but in high school I would fail before I admitted to the teacher I needed help. I hate letting anyone see any weakness in me. I hate being looked down on or pittied or even just feeling there is a possibility of it.


I'm mean to men I don't feel comfortable around. I will act snobbish and rude if I feel threatened by them in anyway.


I don't like talking to people in general. I hate orderibg food at restaurants. I hate when people ask if I need help finding something in a store. I especially hate the stupid, boring, utterly pointless greetings and polite little pleasantries, unless it's someone I actually give a damn about and who actually gives a damn about me.


Hmm, written out, I seem quite unpleasant. I'm really not. I'm kind and cheerful most of the time. I'm just very anxious and easily uncomfortable.