'cause Of My Looks

I am not pretty. Even if I dress prettily, i still end up ugly.I hate my body and face. Everytime I see my reflection or photographs, I will go,"YUUUCK!" And I feel like throwing up, really. That's why I am afraid of being social because people, they can be very very judgemental. About the way I smile, my thighs....Ahh, everything just makes me insecure.
fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench
22-25, F
2 Responses May 22, 2012

I know it's hard to fight these feelings, hell after awhile they become a way of life, a belief...sometimes a means to survival. But keep in mind that most of the time (not all the time and not everyone) but most of the time we feel this way because other weak minded people made us feel this way. I realize that there are many other significant issues you're battling...just don't let others (society) influence you so much. Most people who poke fun or criticize are just ignorant fools. So far from what I've read about you....your heart is something very beautiful.....allow it represent who you are, and your beauty with blossom

I can relate to what you are saying. I've always been very insecure about my looks as well, at one time I went into an eating disorder and went down to 88 pounds.. I have gotten better and now weigh back up to 108. But to be honest, I don't like this weight, and want to lose it again. But not as much as before.. anyway, listen. You are beautiful, everybody is beautiful. Everybody in this world comes in different shapes and sizes. To gain more confidence, you should maybe get a new hair style, a new look, something different that you've always wanted to do. and tell that little voice in your head to shut up, you're beautiful, not ugly, you're perfect just the way you are. accept yourself, be happy, talk to people, just be you. And If anybody can't accept that that's their problem, not yours. And to be more social, just take it a little at a time. Start with saying hello to people with a warm smile, start asking how they are, and so on. you can do anything you set your mind to, I have faith in you. If you ever need somebody to talk to I am here, feel free to befriend me c: