Here In the Ep Too...I feel like I don't know what I'm doing.
With some people I just click, and it is easier to be myself, but on the whole, I struggle a little bit. I don't know how to interact like everyone else and feel like an outcast. I suppose some of this is by design, cuz I hate to be a follower, but it really sucks to feel like a loner all of the time. So many of my reactions here just feel like a failed and flailed attempt at social contact. When I mean it, I am quite authentic, but I just can`t get over feeling a little bit uncomfortable when I just try to fit in. Everyone seems so warm and familiar with each other here, but I don`t as much as i would like. I always feel like I`m about to put my foot in my mouth. Maybe its just cuz I suck at small talk. I wonder if I am as socially inept as I feel.