Because I know that death is going to come eventually. I am afraid of how I am going to die. Will it be painful? Will it be from my disease? Will it be from injury? Will I die before my husband like I want so I don't have to watch him die and then go through life without him by my side? Will I go first so that my children and husband must suffer through with losing me? Will I live a life of pain and suffering before I die? Will my children? Will we all be gone before the end of the world? Being alive is just so scary because of all of these questions. I am so afraid of death that I am becoming afraid to live. Does that make any sense to anyone?