I Am Sometimes Afraid To Share What I Believe
(I actually wrote this story down a few weeks ago in a notebook and only more recently realized I never actually shared it on EP, so I'm copying it down now with a few minor revisions.)
I am sometimes afraid to share what I believe; I know I shouldn't be. I have gotten better about being myself, but I still feel afraid of rejection sometimes, and that prevents me from being completely open. An example of this is telling a fundamental Christian that I believe in psychics and mediums, while yet discussing Christianity with that person. Or telling some other Christians that I beleive some Spirit-filled believers speak in tongues, or just simply that I'm Pentecostal.
I'm going to think out loud even more and write about something I've noticed while writing this story and thinking of examples: Alot of this has to do with Christians. I'm goign to explore possibilities of why that is.
I think it's because I grew up in a Christian family and have gone to church for most of my life. While I'm happy about that and think it's great, I've been learning about other things--religious, spiritual, physical, metaphysical--so I've been stepping out of some Fundamental viewpoints. There are things I was taught as a child that I no longer agree with, like the idea that animals don't have spirits. Others have tried to get me to believe what they believe, but I don't feel they are right. If a few certain family members knew some of the things I believe now, I would be a poor lost soul to them and possibly in danger of going to hell! I'm not a big fan of making people think that way about me or of them trying to change me.
I have another group called "I Want More Christian Friends," and I certainly do, but sometimes I feel like I might have a hard time connecting with them if I deviate too much off of a mainstream denomination. I doubt I'd agree 100% with ANY denomination, but I have to remind myself that there are a lot of "non-traditional" Christians in the world, or anyone of any faith, who wouldn't condemn me for believing differently. =)
This story turned out quite a bit different than how I thought it would go, but I just write as i think and go with the flow of my mind and end up wherever it takes me. =) I can always add more later or write a second story about it.
I am sometimes afraid to share what I believe; I know I shouldn't be. I have gotten better about being myself, but I still feel afraid of rejection sometimes, and that prevents me from being completely open. An example of this is telling a fundamental Christian that I believe in psychics and mediums, while yet discussing Christianity with that person. Or telling some other Christians that I beleive some Spirit-filled believers speak in tongues, or just simply that I'm Pentecostal.
I'm going to think out loud even more and write about something I've noticed while writing this story and thinking of examples: Alot of this has to do with Christians. I'm goign to explore possibilities of why that is.
I think it's because I grew up in a Christian family and have gone to church for most of my life. While I'm happy about that and think it's great, I've been learning about other things--religious, spiritual, physical, metaphysical--so I've been stepping out of some Fundamental viewpoints. There are things I was taught as a child that I no longer agree with, like the idea that animals don't have spirits. Others have tried to get me to believe what they believe, but I don't feel they are right. If a few certain family members knew some of the things I believe now, I would be a poor lost soul to them and possibly in danger of going to hell! I'm not a big fan of making people think that way about me or of them trying to change me.
I have another group called "I Want More Christian Friends," and I certainly do, but sometimes I feel like I might have a hard time connecting with them if I deviate too much off of a mainstream denomination. I doubt I'd agree 100% with ANY denomination, but I have to remind myself that there are a lot of "non-traditional" Christians in the world, or anyone of any faith, who wouldn't condemn me for believing differently. =)
This story turned out quite a bit different than how I thought it would go, but I just write as i think and go with the flow of my mind and end up wherever it takes me. =) I can always add more later or write a second story about it.
By:
Brieks07
Age:
22-25
,
Female
