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I Don't Have Much To Say...

I have gotten to point that I never answer my phone, rarely call people back, ignore emails and texts, and avoid interacting with people almost all of the time.  If I do answer the phone, I might just give dry one word answers until the person chooses to get off the phone.  I just don't feel like talking unless it's something really specific and thought provoking.  Small talk and typical "how's life" conversations just don't interest me.  I feel bad when people call me out about it, but at the same time it's like a force outside of myself that allows me to continue to ignore people when they reach out to me.  People get so offended by this, but I don't know what to tell them.  I wish I could just snap out of it, but I can't. I'm starting to think I may be more than antisocial. I think I might be depressed but I don't really know why.
AnonymouslySpeaking AnonymouslySpeaking 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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I understand. My girlfriend sometimes pressures me to open up and speak more, because I'm very silent. And I'll search for something to say, anything interesting at all, but I fail every time. Sometimes she'll tell me to make a post on facebook or to talk to people in real life, but I just can't summon up the ability, and I sink into myself.

I rarely answer the phone if I’m home alone, but will call return a call if a message is left on the answering machine. I don’t text (in fact I don’t have a cell-phone, because I don’t wish to be that available) but will respond to an interesting or important email because this format allows me to consider and to edit my responses; also I enjoy any opportunity to make a pointed or smart-aleck comment.<br />
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I am unusually sensitive in social situations and was periodically institutionalized from ages 24 to 31 when I ‘failed to relate’ (i.e. made others nervous). Although I have never been particularly comfortable with other people and still prefer my own company, I have managed to live a reasonably 'normal' life. After an unsuccessful marriage from ages 27 to 30, I found a considerate, sensitive and humorous (and pretty-bonus!) ‘life-partner’ and our relationship has flourished for 32 years. An improvement in diet and the elimination of recreational drugs occurred naturally as a result of this partnership and these changes have undoubtedly further moderated my emotions persona.