I Sometimes Hate ThisI really don't want to have this Asperger's Syndrome. It gets in the way of being a 17 year old girl trying to fit in and have friends.
No one really understands me, not my parents, friends(that I do have), teachers, or peers.
I just want to be normal... I haven't done much research on my disability cause well I guess I don't want to admit I have it... I usually have fights with my parents and it makes me depressed... Sometimes even to were I just want to die. So I decided to give coming to one of these "chat" sites a chance as my mom suggested.
I'm very self critical about everything from my looks, to my art work. The only thing I'm somewhat proud of is my ability to write poetry and stories. I love to read and write because well... For me it's an escape from this world.... I hate how everyone on this world is so judgmental. I mean my little(15) year old sister decided to scream out "Your Mental" to me in my school parking lot... Where everyone could hear... I didn't want to go to school ever again.
I'm horrible at making new friends... I spend most of my time online talking on chat sites to people I don't know in real life cause it is easier then face to face conversation.
I also have A.D.H.D and like I said I fight a lot with my family.... We have even gotten physical... I just wish I could take back some of the things I've done....
If you have any advise please let me know cause right now I really am hurt and confused.... Thank you~
MadokaMagic 16-17, F 2 Responses 0 Jun 29, 2012