I am sometimes antisocial when I have had enough of people. I see through a lot of people's bull and I don't want to deal with it. Sometimes other people's lives make me more anxious and I cannot handle it. I sometimes just don't even want to hear it. Sometimes I need to stew in my own juices, and then I feel guilty when people who I care about wonder what's happened to me and take it personally that I haven't contacted them. I am actually really shy and people don't really know that about me, so that when I don't contact them, it's not usually personal, it's just that I am either feeling really shy or self concious or I just don't have the energy to come up with something to say. I feel like a lot of the time, I really have nothing to say. About anything. And what I do have to say is unfounded, or makes no sense, or is negative. I wish I wasn't this way.