I have a hard time relating to others. I feel like I don't have anything to relay to them. I don't want them knowing anything about me. I find a lot of people fake and boring, and as such, I tend to closet self off from new experiences and new people. My attitude is if they can't be real around me, then I can't be real around them, so I just keep my distance, and tend to make excuses if I'm invited out or people want to come and see me. It's tricky as my job involves working with the public, but when you're at work it's different. There is so much difficulty in letting people in, so consequently, I keep myself to myself, but when you are suffering with depression, you tend to blame yourself for having no friends and no one to talk to. It's a vicious cycle.
lifebeginsat lifebeginsat
46-50, F
1 Response Aug 16, 2014

Have you always been like that? I am almost exactly like that but I've been trying to be more relaxed around people. It's not easy.

No, I haven't always been like this...but since suffering depression, I have found myself a lot more guarded, also a lack of trusting people has impacted on who I let in.

I understand that. I've always been wary of people in general. I've never been very comfortable with emotional or physical contact. Well, if you ever want to talk about it, feel free to message me. I hope you feel better. Best of luck.

Thats terrible, I'm sorry. It hasn't affected my life as much as that other than having a shallow friend pool. Unfortunately some people are a waste of time at best and emotionally wrecking at worst.

I'm the same way

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