I'm Not Trying to Be Mean

but sometimes I just can't stand to be around people. 


Years ago while I was in school I had a very full social life.  I mean, I was 13 into pot, booze, guys, partying, clubbing all that guff.  They were great years for me, surrounded by my friends and many many hot guys lol..(that is a whole other story in itself).

Anyway, as I got older I stopped smoking weed, cut out drinking all together, (only very rarely do I drink now), and stopped partying.  I got a job at 17 and since then it's been work work work, bills, bills, bills... etc etc.

Now I'm 28 and through my 10 years of being an adult I've come to realise that I don't like to be around people.  Not all the time mind you.  4 years ago I met my flatmate and we get along like a house on fire, we're quite similar actually and it's thanks to her and my ex dumping me..(again, a whole other story), that I started going to the pub and found my lovely darling I'm with right now.  I hang out with people at work, WHEN I'm at work, but that's all I really need. 

But in saying that I'd rather be at home with a good book or movie or anime series then be out on the town or whatever.  My partner says to me to go out and enjoy myself but I cringe to think about it.  I have once or twice to appease some people but I'm always thinking about coming back home and curling up with my book, haha.

Sometimes I think, people bore me.  I don't feel the need to surround myself with a ton of people.  I have my partner, who I love, my flatmate who is pretty much my best mate, and my family.  Some people don't understand me, and I don't blame them for that, but I've seen so many fake people in my time it sickens me to think about sharing the same air as them.

Maqi Maqi
26-30, F
11 Responses May 5, 2009

sometimes i do feel the same. People are too loud and annoying

hahahaha! Yeah, make a leaflet to hand out to everyone explaining your reasonings, go knock door to door....."I'd like to talk to you about Jes.... uh.. Virginlove"... lmao! You is the sexy mama here!!!! :D

lol BlueEyes.. we all have our moments of human greatness :P

Holy **** I cannot add to any of that. All you guys have nailed it on the head and to add to it would be repeating everything yall have said. I give it up to you guys definitely the smarter of the human race than the rest LOL.

Please do :)

Exactly JMO. I'm blessed that way too :) Always nice to meet people on the same wavelength :)

If you have even one or two people in your life that you can be friends with whole heartedly, that alone can feel like you have all the friends in the world. :)

Yeah virginlove, I feel that way sometimes too. But I take comfort in the fact that I'm so comfortable in my own company that I don't let it bother me. This is where I miss my 2 cats the most, (I had to leave them behind in New Zealand when I moved to Australia). They were always my tension reliever..

Ahh, it's always nice to know I'm not alone in these things. Thanks guys.

I understand where you are coming from wholeheartedly. Also, people can be so boring just talking about themselves never asking questions about me. I remember the things that people tell me. I always remember to ask followup q's later when I see them. So, now I just try not to engage anyone in conversation cause they dont remember what I have said or done.

Darn straight. Why waste my time with people who only really want to brag and tell me all the great and wonderful things they've done with their life in the last 10 years when I was happily crouching in this clothes rack trying to hide from you because the last time I saw you I distinctly remember..... I never actually liked you! Hahaha, I'm so sad, lol.