I Am Sometimes In Denial
Him: to be blunt
If I own you
I will always make you stop playing 48 hours before I see you
it is a tradition that I believe in very strongly
me: I'd no idea You were such a traditional guy. :)
Him: you have no idea
me: Perhaps not...
but I aim to find out.
~ Chat with Milky, 26 January 2013
I told you he isn't *******, right? That he's been refraining from *********** before he sees me next Wednesday evening. I'd joked that he was going to drown me in *****, and he'd been good-natured about my teasing.
I'd decided to follow suit. Not to ***, I mean. I want my need to build up.
I'm not usually so disciplined. I touch myself a lot, almost always to completion. Sometimes I may be interrupted, but I usually go back to finish the job. I don't just tease myself. I seek and attain release.
It's a dirty job, but someone's gotta do it.
It looks like the decision has been taken out of my hands, though. I'm now following orders. Which actually suits me fine. It's so much more pleasant to play with a partner. To do things for someone. Knowing that my actions feed something in him or her. Usually, of course, it's achieved by my being there with them, by listening to them. In a few spectacular cases, by touching them. Hugging and kissing are the most common methods I've employed.
How strange and wonderful that I can sexually excite a man by giving him the authority to issue a prior restraint order. At least, I'm betting it excites him. He does love having control, you know. And I love giving it up, even though it doesn't come naturally to me.
I'm not saying I'm a control freak, although at least one of my readers has accused me of this. (I'm looking at you, Mr. K.) But you have to understand that allowing someone to dictate to me doesn't come all that easily. I am the daughter of entrepreneurs. And the sister of a self employed man. Charting my own course is in my blood. But from the time he warned me that he would demand certain things if he owned me I felt myself sinking into servitude. It was that word "blunt," I think. I do like a straight shooter. Someone who says what he wants, what he expects, who'll brook no opposition.
No, that's not true. It's not a blanket thing. There are plenty of guys who say such stuff, and I really don't give a **** what they want. They're not getting it, at least not from me. But this guy is different. The fact that he'd not tried to boss me at first, that he'd simply talked to me, counts for a lot. He's just so goddamned likeable. A genuinely nice man. One who enjoys women, one who's willing to commit to a single mistress. One who's had several long term affairs.
You can roll your eyes at that statement all you want, but that means a lot to me. I want to be special to someone, not one of a group of girls he's pursuing. And I don't want a one night stand. I don't get tired of the people I love. I want to see them repeatedly. Variety may be the spice of life, but with the right man, I could happily forsake all the others. I'm willing to forgo pleasure beforehand to make this more intense, although to be honest, I think it's going to be plenty intense as it is.
Him: sooo
your day looks full of fun things as well?
me: yes indeed
Him: kids and theater?
me: yep
if only I had some sex...
my life would be blissful
Him: I am sure your fingers can come up with something?
me: I am saving myself
I have decided if you can do it, so can I
Him: awe
now this is your choice
me: yes, it is
I sort of like the notion
Him: to be blunt
If I own you
I will always make you stop playing 48 hours before I see you
it is a tradition that I believe in very strongly
me: I'd no idea You were such a traditional guy. :)
Him: you have no idea
me: Perhaps not...
but I aim to find out.
Him: yes...a girl should be very focused on her Dom
and i find that 48 hours does exactly that
me: The magic time period, huh?
Is this based on scientific method?
have you tested this by abstinence training?
varying the denial period?
Him: You trust Me?
me: explicitly, darling
Him: so after Monday at midnight
me: just curious about your research methodology
yes...
Him: You will not touch your lil *****
period the end
me: oh my
deal
Him: I will ask
and will know if you are telling the truth
me: so...
let me understand..
Him: yes...
me: I can continue to write?
to watch on cam?
but just not touch my puss?
Him: let's be clear
you will not *** from any method
but especially touching your *****
clear?
agree?
me: crystal
If I own you
I will always make you stop playing 48 hours before I see you
it is a tradition that I believe in very strongly
me: I'd no idea You were such a traditional guy. :)
Him: you have no idea
me: Perhaps not...
but I aim to find out.
~ Chat with Milky, 26 January 2013
I told you he isn't *******, right? That he's been refraining from *********** before he sees me next Wednesday evening. I'd joked that he was going to drown me in *****, and he'd been good-natured about my teasing.
I'd decided to follow suit. Not to ***, I mean. I want my need to build up.
I'm not usually so disciplined. I touch myself a lot, almost always to completion. Sometimes I may be interrupted, but I usually go back to finish the job. I don't just tease myself. I seek and attain release.
It's a dirty job, but someone's gotta do it.
It looks like the decision has been taken out of my hands, though. I'm now following orders. Which actually suits me fine. It's so much more pleasant to play with a partner. To do things for someone. Knowing that my actions feed something in him or her. Usually, of course, it's achieved by my being there with them, by listening to them. In a few spectacular cases, by touching them. Hugging and kissing are the most common methods I've employed.
How strange and wonderful that I can sexually excite a man by giving him the authority to issue a prior restraint order. At least, I'm betting it excites him. He does love having control, you know. And I love giving it up, even though it doesn't come naturally to me.
I'm not saying I'm a control freak, although at least one of my readers has accused me of this. (I'm looking at you, Mr. K.) But you have to understand that allowing someone to dictate to me doesn't come all that easily. I am the daughter of entrepreneurs. And the sister of a self employed man. Charting my own course is in my blood. But from the time he warned me that he would demand certain things if he owned me I felt myself sinking into servitude. It was that word "blunt," I think. I do like a straight shooter. Someone who says what he wants, what he expects, who'll brook no opposition.
No, that's not true. It's not a blanket thing. There are plenty of guys who say such stuff, and I really don't give a **** what they want. They're not getting it, at least not from me. But this guy is different. The fact that he'd not tried to boss me at first, that he'd simply talked to me, counts for a lot. He's just so goddamned likeable. A genuinely nice man. One who enjoys women, one who's willing to commit to a single mistress. One who's had several long term affairs.
You can roll your eyes at that statement all you want, but that means a lot to me. I want to be special to someone, not one of a group of girls he's pursuing. And I don't want a one night stand. I don't get tired of the people I love. I want to see them repeatedly. Variety may be the spice of life, but with the right man, I could happily forsake all the others. I'm willing to forgo pleasure beforehand to make this more intense, although to be honest, I think it's going to be plenty intense as it is.
Him: sooo
your day looks full of fun things as well?
me: yes indeed
Him: kids and theater?
me: yep
if only I had some sex...
my life would be blissful
Him: I am sure your fingers can come up with something?
me: I am saving myself
I have decided if you can do it, so can I
Him: awe
now this is your choice
me: yes, it is
I sort of like the notion
Him: to be blunt
If I own you
I will always make you stop playing 48 hours before I see you
it is a tradition that I believe in very strongly
me: I'd no idea You were such a traditional guy. :)
Him: you have no idea
me: Perhaps not...
but I aim to find out.
Him: yes...a girl should be very focused on her Dom
and i find that 48 hours does exactly that
me: The magic time period, huh?
Is this ba
have you tested this by abstinence training?
varying the denial period?
Him: You trust Me?
me: explicitly, darling
Him: so after Monday at midnight
me: just curious about your research methodology
yes...
Him: You will not touch your lil *****
period the end
me: oh my
deal
Him: I will ask
and will know if you are telling the truth
me: so...
let me understand..
Him: yes...
me: I can continue to write?
to watch on cam?
but just not touch my puss?
Him: let's be clear
you will not *** from any method
but especially touching your *****
clear?
agree?
me: crystal
By:
milkynips
Age:
46-50
,
Female
