Lost In My Own Head

I'm really open-minded and really picky at the same time...
A lot of the time I don't want to admit when I know exactly what I want because I either don't want to seem difficult or I'm afraid I'll change my mind when it's too late.
I have an addictive personality; I want to try and experience everything. I want to be really hard-core, extreme and stare in the eyes of danger but I also want to be sweet, innocent and simple.
I want balance but that's boring....

Because I never really know what I want, I am often lost in my own head, looking to grasp on to something only to change my mind and let go of it.

abbleseed abbleseed
22-25, F
1 Response Jul 23, 2010

Go stare at a river. It is always the same, but it is never the same. I am wildly romantic and real mush AND I am a cold calculating demanding dominant man.<br />
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I love tender caresses and whipping a woman often back to back.<br />
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The only true constant I have found in life is change.<br />
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That you hold disparate ideas I think is a natural thing.<br />
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I am a communist, capitalist, socialist and believe in also living outside the realm of money. Now many tell me I cannot be a communist and a capitalist, but that would be like saying "If you generate power using water, you cannot generate power using wind and the sun and oil or coal!" except we seem to do this just fine.<br />
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Remember religions and governments operate first and foremost on fear. The first way to create fear is to separate people and make Them Over There a DANGER!!!!!<br />
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In the Bible (a book I contend was written with truth hidden within lies), the Garden of Eden story always gets big play on how the Snake and Eve blah blah blah.<br />
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The admonition "Do not eat of the fruit of the tree of knowledge of Good and Evil" is to me the key.<br />
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Once you separate things into Good or Evil, you are ******. And separating is exactly what religions and governments do, then they have you fight out of fear.<br />
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Be one way one minute and a different way the next. You will find that at each given moment it fits and makes sense.