What You See Is Not What You Get... Sry

I may seem happy always
but more than often, while im smiling, im jus feeling nonchalent

I may seem positive always
but more than often, when i am optimistic, a part of me screams of negativity

I may seem talkative always
but more than often, when i talk, im jus sprouting nonsense to keep the conversation going

I may seem to be concerned about my studies
but more than often, when i stare at the book, my mind is drifing elsewhere

I may seem to be an obedient girl
but more than often, when i smile and say yes, vulgarites that flood my mind is uncountable

Sorry for not being the great person i seem to be