Sorry Nan

Dear nan,

I'm sorry nan that I didn't get to spent more time with you while you were dying. I'm sorry because it was my choice not too. I loved you so much and was scared. I wanted to be with you but couldn't bare to see you in so much pain. I should have been stronger for you. You needed me and I wasn't there. I was young but it's no excuse. I miss you every single day of my life, I think about you always. you weren't just a grandmother. You were my best friend, my substitue mother and everything I aspire to be. You always had time for me, always told me how proud you were of me. I miss the silly games we'd play and the funny stories you'd tell me. I miss the smell of you perfume and your crazyness. You were one in a million, I'm so proud to have known you. I hope that you can forgive me for not being a better grandaughter, Love you always xxxx