My New Life

for my children and i, i just recently separated after 23 years.I cant say that my marriage has been a wonderful journey because i would be lying.I have had a terrible experence with marriage, viloence , jealousy,and alcohol.I have just recently gotten over a serious bout of cervical cancer and now have come to the conclusion that life has to better out there somewhere.I still at the moment live with my ex until a home comes for me,( i cant wait! I need to gain the courage to start fresh and to learn what person i can be.I have been restricted for most of my life and now yearn to be free.

lillilou lillilou
41-45, F
4 Responses Dec 5, 2008

GuennaJane is right on! Now if I could only follow the advice but I am terrified of trying. Starting over is a scary thing to do. But I think if you are ready to do it you will and it will turn out better for everyone. I know that's true for me but I haven't gotten the courage yet. I hope you have a wonderful new life!

I'm in the same boat. I've been at this for about a year now - being on my own and starting over. It has it's ups and downs. Just be patient and gentle with yourself and don't make any big plans or changes for at least a year (two's better). Get to know yourself during this time and build a strong foundation. Time has an amazing way of healing and taking care of "what's next". Good Luck and I'm prout of you for getting you and the kids out of a bad situation. Now's the time to reach out to your friends/family and do lots of things with your kids. They need you even if they don't act like it all the time.

I have started over several times, and today I will do it again. Stay focused, and try not to make mistakes.

I wish you the best in your journey a head.x