Starting My Life Again

I keep messing my life up with drugs or some other harmfull addiction.  This time I can clearly see that I am messing up my life.  I thought that all this time I was an honest person, and then I realized I was in denial.  It was a shock to me to finally realize this.

DreamSCReam DreamSCReam
46-50
5 Responses Feb 21, 2010

i too have screw up my life because of my addictions, however i dont look at them as screw ups....i look at the as opportunities for growth. i had to go through a lot of pain to get wher iam today. i had a lot of stuff and lost it all because of my addiction. It was a good thing because it allowed me to focus on me and not to worry about what i have because it dont mean **** if im not happy with who iam am and what iam doing. for me i have to do the right thing and that means i have to find people that have gone through what i have and ask them how they did it. one thing iv realized is that iam not unique. everywhere i go there is someone that can relate to what i have done and how i have felt. i believe in you and i hope the best for you.

I wish you the best too, WarriorMom.

Thankyou Myonis. That makes alot of sense.

I can really relate to what your saying. <br />
Denial/Divorce/Addiction/Illness. <br />
It's hard to start over again & again.<br />
I wish you the best. WM

Dream, honesty is impossible for a person who is addicted. Denial allows the person to feed their addiction, honesty will help you stay clean. Good luck with your recovery and I commend you for dealing with your addiction and for being so honest here. :)