Not Feeling LovedI have been trying to change some things going on 2 years not. Some things I have changed. I am married and I have know one to talk to. I have been talking to my Lord and Savior but I have been disappointed. Whom I am married to doesn't want to hear it. He is to busy working on his business which is a good thing, because he is thinking about the future. Sometimes I just need the attention. He thinks that I am trying to control him but at the same time I can be told things about a situation before it even happens. Now he is going over to his play sisters house. I never met her. I talked to her one time. He was trying to force me to be her friend. I don't want to be her friend. I don't trust her. I told him that if he goes there will be a seperation. He doesn't cheat or mistreat me or anything. I know in some cases its me. we don't have sex. He doesn't understand that the way he approaches me to have sex with him there is no caring. Last time we did something I felt like trash someone from off the street. I tried to explain it to him but he didn't want to hear it. I was going to show him how he came to me which he has been coming to me I don't like it. Then he gets on the phone and makes some calls and calls his play sister to set up a date for Friday which I work. Isn't that special. I don't think that I am going to do anything on our anniversary. Don't feel it. I will keep to myself I will not share anything with him. I won't be a bother. He will not have to worry about me from this point on.
iamchanging 36-40, F 7 Responses 1 Oct 14, 2010