Starved For Affection
I'm a single woman in her 40's who has found herself quite alone after a relationship break up more than a year ago. Thought I was doing okay with just working, an occasional night out with girlfriends but not much other social activities. Then one day a friend of a friend that I didn't even really know reached out his arms for me and held me and it felt like the most wonderful thing I've ever experienced in my life! This made me realize how lacking I am to even have anyone show me affection and how much I miss it and need it and I almost start crying every time I think about the wonderful feeling I had when that person reached out for me. I can't even explain how good it felt when that person held me - it was like such a huge natural high that I haven't had in years - can't even remember the last time I felt like that - and it happened so unexpectedly.
It seems to be a different feeling having someone reach out to me than it is for me to reach out and be the one who initiates it - why does it seem so much better when someone else initiates it - I think because I need that validation that someone else really wants to hold/hug me and give me affection- not just giving it to me because I'm asking for it or insisting on it on my own
its so hard being single, alone and starved for affection and I just don't know which way to turn anymore as I'm not into the bar scene and don't really find the idea of joining a singles group or church group appealing although I realize I have to do something....